My World

I am not the typical guy. I am not afraid to express my emotions. I am not afraid to explore why I think and do what I do. I explore my actions, I explore my being to help become a better person. That to me is what the journey of life is about. The betterment of yourself in your own eyes. Be damned if it pleases anyone else.

I am the typical guy. I love sports. It is part of my culture. I've been watching, reading, participating in sports since I was a very young child. My first professional sports game in person was the Twins versus the Giants in the old Met Stadium in Minneapolis. It featured a home run derby between Willie "say hey" Mays and Harmon Killebrew. This all according to my mom. All I remember was how loud the planes were. The stadium was right by the airport. I also remember getting a mini-bat that a few years later my stepbrother broke. I have so many stories about my life that revolve around sports, so many recollections of youth that I could write about. So, you see, sports is a part of who I am.

We are all unique, yet I think this combination makes me a different kind of guy and I'm proud of that. I've seen and experienced various forms of sexual and emotional abuse as a child. Luckily for me, my coping mechanism for this was to be nice to people to keep them around. Fear of abandonment used to reign supreme in my life, but therapy and a lot of work has helped me with that. So as you can see, I'm not the typical guy.

We all have adversity in life. It's how you deal with it. Being the atypical guy, I chose to learn about myself, be introspective, read a lot and also to watch myself in front of others. Life is a journey and for me it's a journey to make myself a better person, allowing myself to be myself.

Hugh Prather said "Some people are going to like me and some people aren't, so I might as well be me. Then at least, I will know the people who like me, like me." That is what we strive for. That is what I strive for. I'm tired of my secrets and being afraid or judged by my past to hinder my future. It's a work in progress, but work that I am willing to take. Nothing is easy and I know this won't be.

As you can see my world as a man is multi-faceted with many layers. This is just


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